Thursday Thought - Self Control

I don't understand why people have to criticize others and feel so good about it? 

I mean.. look, we have our own life to take care of and U are instead, busy with other's people life. Just because they posted it online and you happened to read it...and because U can?

If you don't like things happening around you, try to avoid it. Or, don't bother to read it. 

I still remember few years back when I was in my upside down world, getting bored of the so called routine work and environment but at the same time was so scared of my future being too comfortable and secured. No promotion, same work load and task, similar faces and events, the typical daily routine that broke myself into pieces inside out. Screaming inside but laughing outside. You know that feeling when you do your work for the sake of doing it, just because you were paid to do it? 

Well, that's how I felt. 

I can't control what's happening around me that time. I have no authority. I have no right. Then, I bumped into a quote that changed my life; something sounded like this - "U know U can't control the environment because it's something external, but U can control yourself because it's inside U."

It triggered me to think. What the hell am I worrying too much about what's happening outside when the truth is, I have all the authority to control myself, which is way easier. By controlling myself, I can manage how I feel about others and things beyond my reach. 

That's when I started to make a wish list of things I should do to get myself out from where I was that time - the situation, not the place. Remember, the situation is within your control. So, that is when I started to buy a backpack to start my solo backpacking. That's when I started to enroll for an evening class to get my Master. I even started a bond with coffee and having my dedicated coffee time. I begin to slowly do job hunting for some new adventure. 

It took me more than a year to really enjoy a new me. To do that, U have to sacrifice. No such things as short cut or easy way out. When u have problems, learn to face it rather than run away from it. Throughout my journey, I had to find a circle that can make me enjoy the life to the fullest. I slowly avoiding negative people. For me these are toxic, the one that will delay my dream. I personally don't like negative people who love badmouthing, lack of self esteem (and drag others to be like them), full of excuses, backstabber, always give promises (and promises only) and worst, the jury - the one that is so good at criticizing but no action taken. In other word - NATO : No Action, Talk Only.

Alhamdulillah my journey, moving on from the toxic me was great. Once I completed my study, I received a better job offer to at
 least take me to a new adventure level. Few months later, I attended my convocation and officially holding a Master Degree. I bought flight tickets and traveled - solo, with friends or family. Moving on is fun. I managed to see the beauty part of life worth living for without having much to worry if nobody will like me or not. 

Beautiful.

Life is beautiful when U know your limit. Life is even prettier when U play your part not only by being responsible but also by having a good self control. Social media is a platform of too much hatred and negativity but U can make it more positive the way U like it. Stop criticizing every single thing but educate people on what's right or wrong. Stop blaming others if they don't know, but teach them what they should know. Stop telling rumors but share something interesting so people can learn from it. 

U can't stop a war, it is beyond your control but tell the world that U are against it. That is within your limit. Have a good self control. Be someone you will soon be proud of. And remember...

But once you manage to control yourself, it is possible to control the world.


 ...Nkay
twitter is where most of the toxic are

July 2019